Divine test

The end of the year approaches, Christmas is coming, and my daughter’s birthday is just around the corner! Plans for special moments have been made!

Looking at the room, I wonder, how did I get here? Sharing a room with my daughter? She needs her space, I need mine. I wish for something better for us, but I am grateful. We have a roof over our heads, we are in a good place, at a friend’s house. It almost feels like home. We adapt, we are happy here, we make it work, just the two of us, teamwork!

Sometimes I feel tension in the air; we are too loud. I get too comfortable, we don’t talk like we used to. It feels more like a landlady than a friend, as it has been for some time, which is sad. But we carry on with our lives. I do my best to understand, adjust, so that our presence is not “too much.” But we are living souls; Jenny and I are hot-headed, so I knew sooner or later the day would come…

Jenny’s birthday is here, planning a dinner out to celebrate, nothing major. On the same day, a significant argument with the ‘landlady’; some issues arose, it’s time to talk! What started as a pleasant conversation quickly escalated; shots were fired. And as usual, I felt there was no understanding. It’s more like what I say goes, and if not, then the door is open. An increase in rent, noise, bills, I try to understand. But this time I have an opinion, I state my line, simply don’t agree, and oh boy! How things went downhill from there. I felt all rationality went out the window, emotions were high, and I felt… something else is at play here. It was obvious I wasn’t wanted here. I touched a nerve, but even if it wasn’t about me, this person decided to go the route of discomfort, resistance, and distance.
The conversation calmed down, and I agreed to the terms, as usual. Either way, I just want peace.

But to my surprise, the next day, I received a formal email from her to vacate the room, within two months, as a goodwill gesture. Goodwill? Or more to ease her conscience? It’s December! After all, she’s kicking a mother and daughter out at Christmas, where does she expect them to go in December? Giving two months under these circumstances was the least she could do. Either way, it just showed me who she is. There have been some good moments where I’ve seen that side, but I never wanted to believe it, I always like to believe the best in people, and when they’re not, there must be a reason, and usually, there is, but still, you have a choice. Like having two wolves inside you, you choose which one to feed.

It made me see more clearly that we are in different worlds, and I’m better off outside her radar. Emotions, reactions, ego-fed thoughts, blocked heart.

I have no words. “You mention your friend being evicted, and how bad you felt, helpless for her, and you do this?!” Sorry, but you’re a hypocrite.

All I received was a formal email. Not a friend-to-friend conversation, no empathy, no understanding, compassion, not even a simple – “Sorry, but I think it’s time for you to leave. I’m not comfortable with our arrangement. I’ll give you some time, but I’d like you to vacate as soon as possible, thank you.” That would suffice, it would be sad, of course, but at least it would be more considerate.

So I decided to just shut up. I’ll do as I’m told, and cease any interaction. That kind of action has no place in my world. I’ll be polite, of course, but my energy will be kept very restricted.

The days that followed were filled with stress, anxiety, panic, very bad nights, sleepless nights, waking up in the middle of the night with stomach pains, even though I knew I would be fine in my soul. My brain was all over the place! And there’s one of the biggest fights – brain versus heart!

I had assurances from colleagues, friends, and my partner, but still, my brain decided to play with me and see myself in a homeless situation with my daughter, and our belongings somewhere in storage! I just wanted to be prepared for the worst. If I were prepared, then I wouldn’t be more disappointed, right?

All this on my daughter’s birthday, and even before Christmas… oh wow, what a way to end!

Plans were made before all this, to enjoy happy family moments, but now those moments were spoiled with the eviction doom! I felt like I couldn’t be any lower than this! I didn’t tell my family, I don’t want anyone to worry about me, I’ll suffer in silence and deal with my things my way, after all, it’s my responsibility, it’s my fault, and I don’t want to disappoint anyone, I already feel disappointed with myself.

I’m no angel, oh no, I know that, but most of the time it’s just spark and no fire. I don’t cause harm, not intentionally. I like to provoke reactions, see where your ego goes, how far I can take it, and see my own ego in action, it’s all fun! I laugh at myself, so many silly things on the surface, like a play. But deep down, I just know, none of this is real. What’s real is love, compassion, the awareness that resides in all of us and connects us all!

We have this illusion that things happen to us, but they happen for us, and it’s all a manifestation of our desires, aspirations, dreams. Just that things don’t always come as we expected. But if we keep our hearts open and have faith, soon we’ll see more clearly why.

After all, we bring this upon ourselves, changes, and although challenging, they are a necessary evil.

Now, finding myself so grateful for where I am, and realizing that I manifested exactly what I wanted over a year ago! I find myself in a place of peace, love, comfort, warmth, contentment, and pure joy! Like a rubber band, the more you pull back, the further you will be propelled forward!

Just trust and believe in the universe. Never lose your faith and love for this universe. Keep your heart open, and most importantly, don’t always believe your thoughts. Don’t take your mind so seriously; it’s polluted with years of conditioning, don’t believe its stories.

Trust your higher self; in your connection with all that is, have faith in yourself, persevere, love. Love yourself, the process, the journey, the whole cosmos. Love and unify!

Surrender to the divine flow of life, trust the inherent wisdom and grace that guides your journey.

LET GO

Devine Light

You peer through the trees, you peer through me, not merely observing but entering me like a lightning flame. I notice you amidst all the foliage, amidst all these bodies, shapes, and I feel your light, your gaze, your presence permeating my body, my soul. I’m filled with hope, with pure magic, the essence of life itself, what life is truly about, just this moment. Music rings in my ears, you pierce my heart open, and my soul is lifted, singing, dancing with you. You show me what life is about! I’m so engulfed in this pure love, in this precious moment. You show me that life is to be lived, that there is more laughter to be shared, that life is about singing, dancing, and living to the fullest essence of your being. You show me that I’m like a child, here to live fully with all my heart and soul, to just let go, surrender, and enjoy each and every moment, without much story attached to it. Just purely enjoy this experience on earth.

I become intoxicated with your light, your love, your wisdom. I surrender, I laugh, and I become so light I’m transported to the cosmos! Now I’m with the stars, the planets, the clouds, the trees, and every being interconnected between us. I’m every cell, I am all, in one! I can feel everything, the beauty, the life, the drama, and the peace. I can feel the chaos, the brilliance, the compassion, and the torment, all in one second, yet no time has passed at all! This human experience is something else. We have been given tools that we have no idea how to use, and maybe, just maybe, when we learn to let go, surrender, and have faith, we get to have a quick glimpse of what they’re supposed to do, to allow us the best experience of all time! Have faith, have heart, smile, surrender. Let the universe be your teacher, not your ego! Love, laugh, live, be present, even if just for a moment.

Yin Yang Journey

In the depths of despair, we find ourselves questioning the very essence of our existence. But amidst the storms of life, there lies a profound truth waiting to be discovered. Like a lotus emerging from the mud, our struggles pave the way for transformation. Through darkness, we learn to appreciate the radiance of light.

Our journey is one of profound purpose, navigating through the spectrum of human emotions to find meaning in every experience. Just as the yin and yang dance in harmony, we cannot fully grasp the beauty of life without acknowledging its shadows.

Yet, why do we find it so challenging to embrace the gift of existence? Trapped in the monotony of daily routines, we yearn for something more, something that nourishes our souls. Even when our bodies feel weighed down by the burdens of life, nature beckons us with its divine inspiration.

With every gust of wind and crash of waves, we are reminded of our connection to something greater. Yet, too often, we find ourselves confined by fear and societal expectations, hesitant to break free from the chains that bind us.

But there are moments, fleeting yet profound, when we taste the sweetness of liberation. In those instances, we are bathed in the light of love and joy, experiencing a glimpse of our true essence. Yet, as quickly as it comes, it slips away, leaving us longing for more.

In the midst of our mundane existence, we cling to these moments of transcendence, dreaming of the next opportunity to reconnect with the divine. For it is in those moments that we find solace, that we find ourselves closer to the essence of God.

So, let us not be afraid to stray from the beaten path, to embrace the unknown with open arms. For it is through our willingness to explore the depths of our souls that we truly find the light we seek.

Embracing the Divine Dance: Navigating Life’s Ebb and Flow

The end of the year approaches, Christmas is coming, and the birthday of my baby girl right at the door! Plans for great moments!

Looking at the room, I wonder, how did I get here? Sharing a room with my daughter? She needs her space, I need mine. I wish for something better for us, but I am grateful. We have a roof over our heads, we are in a good place, a friend’s house. It feels almost like home. We make do, we’re happy here, we make it work, just the two of us, teamwork!

I feel the tension in the air; we are too noisy. I get a little too comfortable, we don’t talk as we used to. It feels more like a living landlady than a friend, and it has been for quite some time, which is disheartening. But we go on with our lives. I do my best to understand, to adjust, so our presence isn’t “too much”. But we are live souls; Jenny and I are fire heads, so I knew sooner or later the day would come…

Fight amidst celebration

Jenny’s birthday is here, planning some dinner out to celebrate, nothing major. But also, I must have an important discussion with the ‘landlady’; some issues have arisen, it’s time to chat! What started as a nice conversation quickly escalated; shots were fired. And as usual, I felt like there was no understanding. It’s more like “what I say goes, and if not, then the door is open.”
An increase in rent, noise, bills, I try to understand. But this time I have an opinion, I say my line, I simply don’t agree, and oh boy how things went wrong from there. I felt like all rationality went out the door.

Emotions were high, and I felt… something else is at play here. It was obvious I was not wanted here. I pulled a nerve, but even if it wasn’t about me, this person has decided to think their way into discomfort, resistance, and distance.
The conversation calmed down, and I agreed with the terms, as usual. If anything, I just want peace.

To my surprise, the next day, I was met with a formal email from her to vacate the premises within two months, in an act of good faith. Good faith? Or more to ease your consciousness? We are in December! After all, you are kicking out a mother and daughter at Christmas, where you expect them to go in December? Giving two months in these circumstances was the minimum you could do.

If anything this just showed me who you are. A have I seen this side of you previous times, but I never wanted to believe it, I always like to believe in the best of people, in the end you always have a choice.

Like having two wolves within oneself, you choose each one you feed.

Made it clearer to me, that we are worlds apart, and I am better off not being on your radar. Ego-fuelled emotions, reactions, thinking, heart blocked being. I am out of words. “You mention your friend being evicted, and how bad you felt, helpless for her, and you do this?!” I’m sorry, but you are a hypocrite.

All I got was a formal email. Not a friend-to-friend frunk conversation, no empathy, no understanding, compassion, not even a simply – “I‘m sorry, but I think it’s time for you to leave. I don’t feel comfortable with our arrangement anymore. I will give you some time, but I would like you to vacate as soon as possible, thank you.” This would suffice, sad, of course, but considerate.

Journey of doubt and uncertainty

I decided there and then to just shut. I will do as I am told, and I will cease any interaction. This kind of action has no place in my world. I will be polite, of course, but my energy will be kept very nit.

The days that came were filled with stress, anxiety, panic, really bad nights, sleepless nights, and waking up in the middle of the night with stomach pains, despite knowing I would be fine in my soul. My brain was all over the place! And there is one of the biggest fights – brain versus heart!

I had reassurance from colleagues, friends, and partners, but still, my brain decided to toy with me big time and see me in a sheltered place with my daughter, and our belongings somewhere in storage! I just wanted to be prepared for the worst. If I was prepared, then I wouldn’t be more disappointed, right?

All of this on my daughter’s birthday, and just before Christmas… oh boy what a way to go!

Christmas came and went and I did my best to enjoy it the best I could, always going to sleep worried, and feeling sorry for myself. I felt I couldn’t be any lower than this!

Haven’t told my family, don’t want anyone worrying about me, I will suffer in silence and deal with my things my way, after all, it is my responsibility, it’s my doing, and I don’t want to disappoint anyone, I already feel disappointed with myself.

I’m no angel, oh no, I know that, but mostly it’s all spark and no fire. I don’t harm, not willingly. I like to spark reactions though, see where your ego goes, where can I take it, and see my ego at play too, it’s all fun! I laugh at myself, so many silly things at the surface, like a drama play. But within, I just know, nothing of this is real. What’s real is the love, the compassion, the consciousness that resides in all of us and connects us all!

There is hope

We have this illusion that things happen to us, but they happen for us, and it is all a manifestation of our desires, wishes, dreams. It’s just that things don’t always come as we expected. But if we keep an open heart and have faith, we will soon see more clearly why.

After all, we bring this to ourselves, changes, and although challenging, they are a necessary ‘evil’.

Now, finding myself being so grateful for where I am, and realizing that I have manifested exactly what I wished for over a year ago! I find myself in a place of peace, love, comfort, warmth, contentment, and pure joy! Like a rubber band, the more you pull back, the further you will be propelled forward!

Just trust and believe in the universe. Never lose your faith and your love for this universe. Keep your heart open, and most importantly, don’t always believe your thoughts. Don’t take your mind so seriously; it’s defiled with years of conditioning, don’t believe its stories.

Trust your higher self; your connection to all that is, have faith in yourself, persevere, love. Love yourself, the process, the path, the all cosmos. Love and unify!

Surrender to the divine flow of life, trust the inherent wisdom and grace that guides your journey.

LET GO

Enraged into Peace!

You might feel tempted to curse, blame, rage, judge, criticize, point fingers, gossip, scream, put down, or just shout, “who do you think you are?” But really, what does that serve?
All that hatred—what purpose does it serve? I’m not saying not to express your hurt, but don’t place it on someone else. Even if it seems to come from an external source, it actually comes from within—a part of you that is unhappy, doesn’t accept, a part that is unhealed. Go within, give yourself some love, check yourself out, discover the love behind that pain, and then realize that same love is reflected to you from everywhere you look, abundantly given! If you’re truly awake and willing to accept it!
Don’t let this anger overcome you; it isn’t you, and it doesn’t serve you. Remember who you are, remember where you come from. Remember that whatever you see as negative is another form of perception; they’re both the same, gifts from the source, just a way of contrast, or you wouldn’t see anything. You need the contrast, you need the dark to see the light, and you can’t see the positive without the negative. But don’t make attachments to just one side! Again, you’ll miss the bigger picture, the broader perspective, and the sense of fulfillment that brings—the sense of abundance, of awe. The universe isn’t biased, and you shouldn’t be either! By limiting ourselves to one side, we limit the gifts we can receive. We limit our experiences; we should be open to receive. Be in a higher vibration, accept anything with open arms, and be ready for the adventure!
The universe is here loving you and rooting for you—be willing! You came here to experience all there is, so don’t shy away. Smile and open your arms, love with all your heart, all that is, as it is, because it’s all perfect exactly as it is! Find peace in ambiguity.

Lunar Eclipse

Like a shadow, like a dark veil, like a harsh grip of an unrelenting storm, you slowly enveloped me, saturating my being with introspection, contemplation, and profound thoughts. Amidst the obscurity, uncertainty, and tears, I found myself yearning for a transformative journey. In the midst of this somber shroud, I felt a constriction, longing for clarity, struggling to discern a purpose. All I perceived was a coldness in my soul, an absence of gratitude, and an unyielding burden of judgment, both from external sources and from this internal ‘entity.’

The world’s energies felt like daggers piercing my heart. Why did they seem so cold, so judgmental, so critical? Where had kindness and compassion gone? Was I alone in this journey? I longed to escape this darkness, to free myself from the chains of non-acceptance and rejection, both from within and from the world. All I craved was love – to give it and receive it. Why did people appear so insensitive, so cruel, so indifferent? Why couldn’t they show empathy, understand, and treat each other with tenderness? Was pride the formidable armor that encased their hearts? It was all rooted in fear.

I carried the weight of the limitations that people imposed on themselves and how this energy reverberated through humanity. We came into this world to be authentic, to express ourselves freely, to love and be loved. We were meant to experience and create beauty, unity, and moments of grace. Why choose division? Why persist in fear? Why limit your potential? In truth, the act of self-imposed separation only isolates us from the interconnected whole, for we are all one.

Let love be your essence, your conversation, your embodiment. The more love you radiate, the higher the collective vibrational frequency becomes. This is a collective effort, and all of humanity reaps the rewards. People long for kindness and love. They desire to feel it, transform with it, and become beacons of love themselves.

I once felt inadequate, small, and disconnected, but not alone, for I was never severed from the source. A veil temporarily obscured my inspiration, my love, and my radiance. Instead, I dwelled in pettiness, sorrow, and inertia, devoid of faith. It was as if the switch of life had been turned off.

Then, as the Taurus Lunar eclipse on October 28th concluded its phase, the veil dissipated. Suddenly, everything was crystal clear, and the weight disappeared. I smiled, wondering why and how this transformation occurred. The veil had descended over a month ago, ushering in a period of self-doubt, self-punishment, and self-condemnation. I felt weak, unable to fully defend myself or understand and accept my own worth. It’s a daunting place to lose oneself. My greatest fear is losing my core self, the one that sustains, inspires, and connects us to higher realms—the self brimming with love, beauty, and abundance.

Without that self, life loses its meaning. The ego self reacts intensely, taking things personally, defending, and fighting, which only intensifies suffering. It may seem like it’s protecting you, but it’s only guarding an illusion of who you are, detached from your true essence.

You are a tremendous source of energy, capable of creating magic and radiating love. What happens in this three-dimensional reality is but an experience, designed to teach, transform, and help you understand your true potential. You are here to know yourself fully, to comprehend how everything affects you and propels you toward your true self.

Never lose sight of your essence, the richness within you, and your boundless potential as a creative being! Above all, transcend any limitations, nurture self-love, and love others as if they were one and the same soul. The concept of separation is nothing more than an illusion in the grand tapestry of existence.

Full eclipse in a night sky illuminated by stars. Elements of this image furnished by NASA (map source : http://earthobservatory.nasa.gov/blogs/elegantfigures/files/2011/10/land_shallow_topo_2011_8192.jpg)

Annoying people!

Imagine someone who irritates you, someone who gets on your nerves in less than a minute! Someone who contradicts you, someone who doesn’t understand you, someone you don’t understand either—how can they think the way they do or act the way they act? You can’t grasp what drives that person to do things that are “unthinkable” or without explanation to you. And because you don’t understand, it frustrates you, and you think about it for hours or even days on end. You replay it like a cassette tape on repeat because it simply confuses you. You can’t accept it, and at the same time, a desire arises within you to control something you dislike, something that doesn’t fit your standards. You feel indignant, the need for the other person to change what they did, what they said, or even their way of being because it’s not right to you! You need an apology, you need that person to acknowledge their wrongdoing, and for you to be right! Or at the very least, for them to recognize you!

Why? Have you ever thought about it? Why do we get so irritated by things/people we can’t change? Simply put, they’re not like us! But you don’t like it; it’s hard for you to accept, and you keep hitting a wall every day about something that happened days or hours ago. You keep reliving it endlessly, hoping that it will change out of the blue. Or you waste time playing scenarios in your head about what you could say, do, or completely modify!

What if I told you that this isn’t you? How you feel in these moments is an indication of disconnection from your true self. When you find yourself in a negative space, it’s your inner being telling you that your thoughts are not in harmony with your true self and its beliefs. And why is that? Because your true self comes from love! A love that encompasses everything and everyone, that doesn’t judge, condemn, or have expectations—it simply accepts.

On the other hand, your Ego believes in separation, injustice, victimhood, anger, justification, and aggression. The Ego simply lacks the ability to see the bigger picture, unlike your inner being that comes from love. The Ego is tempting; it likes attention, drama, and the feeling of importance. It doesn’t trust, doesn’t believe, always trying to preserve itself and justify its existence.

If you believe in yourself, have faith in yourself, love yourself, and feel at peace with yourself, nothing anyone does to you will bring feelings of revolt but rather compassion, even if the other person has done something considered “so negative.”

Negativity and positivity, right and wrong, are subjective; they are not absolute truths! Therefore, we cannot govern ourselves by these imposed and learned standards!

The choice is in your hands: how to react and the perspective that resonates with your being. The right answer is revealed in how you feel! Sometimes it’s difficult, I know, but trust your inner compass. If you don’t feel good, it’s because your decision doesn’t align with the vibration of your soul/inner being. If you feel good, then believe that it’s for you, it’s the right answer, it comes from the right place, and it’s the response that your being believes will benefit you the most.

Try changing the narrative! And if it’s difficult, try letting go of the thought altogether! Shift your vibration to something more positive, think about something you like, people you love, people who make you happy, or events, your pets—anything that can change your frequency. You, more than anyone, deserve to be happy, to feel loved—by yourself! Your

essence knows this and translates it into how you feel! And that’s why it’s so important to be open to how you feel and to the thoughts that occupy your mind.

The more you maintain a positive vibration, the more you attract circumstances and people that align with that vibration! It doesn’t mean it will always be a bed of roses, but it’s important to maintain an open perspective and believe in the best for ourselves! Stay mindful of your thoughts and change course when necessary. Remember that the thoughts you focus on manifest, especially when you put strong emotions behind them. So, focus on love, joy, and well-being! The more you practice, the more you’ll see results that prove this to be true!

You have influence and the ability to control the direction of your life more than you think! Give yourself love, align with yourself, make an effort to know yourself better, to love yourself as you deserve. Give yourself time, give yourself space! You deserve everything and more; don’t forget who you are and where you come from! You are made of the stars in the sky, pure consciousness, pure abundance! Believe in yourself! You are a magnificent being!

With much love and peace to all of you. 🙏🏻❤️

Inspired

How often do I have narratives in my mind, stories to tell? How often do I have immense thoughts of what I should write? How many inspiring voices do I hear, only to never put them on paper? They slip away as if I’m afraid that once they reach the page, they won’t be the same words anymore, won’t carry the same sound, enthusiasm, or intention.

When people ask me where I’m from, I don’t know how to answer. I was born in one country, spent my adolescence in another, and now I’m growing old in the one I’m in. How do I respond? I don’t belong anywhere, yet I’m everywhere. I feel connected to everything. I’m not just from one place; I am of the world, and I feel the world within me. There is no separation, just as there is no separation between us.

It confuses me to see people getting upset with one another, not realizing that they are only upsetting themselves. Why criticize or judge? Why harbor ill will towards others? Don’t you see that we are all one? Can’t you see that your own restlessness doesn’t come from outside? If you’re upset about something someone else did, look within yourself for the reason why. There is an illusion of separateness, a selfish and petty tendency to believe that there isn’t enough, that we need to defend our territory or attack others out of fear that they might take something away from us, be it material or not.

I’m not saying that if someone does something to you, you shouldn’t defend yourself, but it’s your reaction to what’s happening, what’s going on inside you when something dissatisfying occurs. Are you reacting out of a sense of lack, fear, or pain? Observe.

Occasionally, I encounter people who get irritated, people who aren’t accustomed to my enthusiasm. I’m used to it by now. Some feel threatened by our radiance, while others simply don’t live with inner peace; they seek it externally without success. And when the external world doesn’t meet their expectations, there’s a clash. It’s normal, and I understand. For me, these are opportunities to grow, to become more open, kinder, and more compassionate towards the suffering of others. At the same time, I observe my own suffering because I’m not exempt from it, none of us are, unless you’ve reached the enlightenment of your being.

I often feel like I don’t belong anywhere, lacking the foundations that most people have or seek, unable to plan for the future. All the conditions imposed on me during my upbringing mean nothing because I didn’t hold onto anything. In fact, I let go of everything! They are all illusions.

We grow up thinking we need “that” relationship, that we need a certain house, children, work, a car, and so on—the list keeps growing. I had all of those things gradually, and gradually I “returned” them because I didn’t find happiness in any of them. Happiness is sought from within! Until you realize that, you stumble around, filling yourself with things, projects, more work, and less time for yourself. Less time alone to find and realize that you already came into this world with everything you need, right here.

This doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy certain things or fulfilling relationships that warm my heart. However, true fulfillment only happens when your being feels complete without them. Only then can you truly savor external experiences because they are a reflection of your inner self.

I discovered that a part of me loves the shadows, solitude, finding itself in music and writing! In a book where words make sense to the soul. The silence between two people who are accomplices is worth more

than compliments. Strolling arm in arm and occasionally exchanging a glance and a smile.

I discovered that while others speak passionately and without a filter about what’s in their hearts and minds, I prefer to remain silent, listening not with my ears but with my soul. The words pass through me, little remains, but what stays is how they speak, their presence, their gestures, and their aura. I feel the warmth/energy of their presence, and it brings me great joy just to be in their company! I feel that words are mere distractions from the essence of their being. So, I filter and focus on what’s most important. Beautiful people expressing themselves, emanating their energy, often unaware of the interaction we’re having beyond words. They leave an impression on me, and I leave one on them. We exchange a “currency” of energy.

It’s so beautiful to see a world beyond what our minds have learned to “see.” To see a world full of energies and colors!

I’ve learned not to cling to the fact that many people still live in their own prisons because, after all, I’m no more or less than any of them. I feel an urge to help, but I don’t intrude. Who am I to do so? All I offer is an intention of love and faith, wishing them happiness, self-discovery, self-love, and the most peaceful path possible. May their pains be seen as lessons, not defeats, but as achievements. May these lessons bring them more structure in what makes them happy and what they need to let go of.

I discovered the silence between words, the silence in music, silence even in the midst of chaos! This silence is so full of peace and love, so welcoming. It cradles you and takes you to a place I like to call “HOME.”

I hope that each one of us has the ability, no matter where we are or who we’re with, to always return home. To be at home!

Family Turmoil

Surrendering to yourself and to the situation can be daunting, but it can provide a much-needed relief from the overwhelming and chaotic thoughts, feelings and emotions that come with family. When we understand that we have ultimate control over the way our lives unfold, we can begin to appreciate the power of the surrender process. Feeling our way through the stories, conflicts, and struggles that come with family relationships helps us to recognize our ability to cope with all of life’s challenges and to take charge of our own spiritual path and enlightenment. Even when situations may seem heavy, we can look past the illusion and remember that surrender is the key to unlocking our peace within.

Stop struggling and fighting, stop trying to prove yourself to anyone and looking for love from the outside. Stop looking for answers and solutions from elsewhere, especially from outside sources. The answers you seek are inside yourself.

Your parents, your mother, your father—they can’t provide the answers for their actions or your feelings. They don’t have the answers either. In the end, it’s not anyone’s fault; even if you wish it were, it’s yours. You’re the one who has to own up to your feelings and take responsibility for them.

Take a step back and try to understand yourself. You’ll find the answers you need within.

Surrendering can be a difficult concept to understand because on the surface it looks like we are giving up our own will – a part of ourselves we hold sacred – in order to please someone else or to look better in the eyes of others. We also often feel the need for validation and recognition from other people and subconsciously think that surrendering in situations or relationships means that we are being taken advantage of by others.

When we want to let go of something and be done with it, surrendering can often feel like the only solution. But we need to remember that surrendering comes with a promise of release and a sense of peace and acceptance. It means to be willing to let go of any attachment that we may have and understand it for what it is. Only then can we take the first step towards true liberation.

In order to surrender and truly welcome peace, we need to be willing to forgive and release any feelings of guilt, blame and shame we may have associated with a situation. This can be hard to do, but it can be a process of self-love and understanding. By understanding our own feelings, insecurities and fears, we can learn to let go and surrender with grace and dignity. This is how we can finally step out of the cycle of need for validation and acceptance from others, and find true liberation for ourselves.

It can be so hard to accept that our parents, who we look up to and admire, are just normal humans like us. Our childhood idolization of them fades away as we understand the impossible task of meeting their expectations and making them proud. We demand so much from them and when we don’t get it, disappointment and suffering follows.

Acceptance is key here. We can’t keep fighting against the present reality. We have to accept it and learn to appreciate the love and guidance they offer, even if it falls short of what we expect. By breaking away from our expectations, we can appreciate the giving nature of our parents and come to terms with who they are. We shouldn’t measure them against an impossible standard. Instead, let’s recognize true unconditional love for what it is and learn to be grateful for it.

We may allow ourselves to surrender, to stop pushing away and aspiring to unattainable dreams, to just be here and now. To truly be present and at peace with ourselves, our lives, and our place in the world. We can allow ourselves to be vulnerable and to accept that we are all imperfect, flawed humans. We can love our authenticity and the beauty of being alive and in this moment. To embrace the strange and wonderful journey that is life, to surround ourselves with the people that bring us joy and peace and to appreciate them for just who they are, not for what we expect them to be for us. They too are on their own unique journey, and if we can be open to explore, to feel, and to connect with our hearts, we can free ourselves from the weight of the past and the expectations of the future. We can surrender, rest in the stillness, and be fully here and now.

Take a deep breath and let it out slowly. You can be yourself without fear of judgement or recrimination. You offer compassion, understanding and space to others so that they can be their true selves. Your peace is worth more than any argument or drama. Let go of the story, the thought, and the fight. Nothing is so important that it has to cost you your peace. Allow yourself to release any feelings of anger or upset and embrace the feeling of inner harmony. Let the people and the world around you be and simply be yourself.

We may be presented with a lot of different perspectives, opinions, and situations throughout our lives. It is easy to get distracted or overwhelmed by our surroundings, but it’s important to trust our intuition and inner guidance. Don’t just believe what we’re told or what we’re seeing—trust our intuition, our inner knowing and the love we have within.

Letting go of the story and instead focusing on inner peace and love can be a difficult process. But by trusting ourselves and the higher intelligence that connects us all, we can practice learning to live in the moment and simply be here, loving.

As we do, we will gain access to a higher awareness, a more fulfilling way of life, and a more profound connection to the divine in ourselves and in all things. Let us make inner peace and love our highest goal and discover a life filled with clear understanding, joy, and purpose.

Illusion of Self

In order to begin to break free from our subconscious habits, we need to become aware of how we are responding to situations. This means confronting ourselves in difficult situations, instead of automatically reverting to familiar ways of responding. Pay attention to the emotions you feel when something happens and the urge to respond in a certain way. Question why you feel compelled to respond in that way and discern if it is appropriate or productive. By exploring these difficult situations consciously and recognizing patterns of behavior, we can start to understand ourselves better and make choices that reflect our true values and desires. With practice we can learn to respond to life’s challenges in ways that move us forward, rather than restrict us to a narrow and limited worldview.

Reading and accepting this may indeed be difficult as it forces us to confront our preconceived notions and view our life circumstances in a different light. It is so easy to become defensive and see our experiences as reflections of ourselves, rather than simply what they are—random occurrences. It takes effort and courage to break away from the traditional idea of ‘self’ and see the world around with fresh eyes. But if we can do this, we may just gain a new appreciation of life’s unpredictable beauty.

The ego can be a protective shield, trying to alert us to perceived danger, but once we’re aware of what lies beyond this impulse, we’re empowered to transcend its limitations. Instead of interpreting our reactions as an indictment of ourselves, we can see it for what it is – an opportunity to gain insight into our true nature. Through heightened awareness, we can understand the triggers that set off these emotions and acknowledge them as growth opportunities.

Let us be mindful and open to the moments when our ego reacts instinctively. We can acknowledge these responses, but choose to remain detached from them. Let us strive to make peace with the triggers, for in our awareness, lies our power. Connect to the energy of the moment and hold space for yourself to recuperate and heal. Embrace every experience as a gift and wake up to the beauty of life.

Nothing is ever personal, we are all connected and part of a greater whole. Life’s experiences, challenges and people are there to help us grow and reach our highest potential. Instead of feeling victimized and attacked by life, we should feel blessed and honoured to be part of this process.

Become aware of your reactions and feelings, and understand how that serves you or works against you. Let go of any negative patterns and open yourself up to the possibility of living a more fulfilled and awake life. Embrace the journey and follow your own truth, unlocking deeper understanding and wisdom of your true self.

Realize that when you don’t feel right, it is likely because something isn’t serving your true self. Don’t get stuck in negative thought patterns, as these are not aligned with who you truly are and are not taking you to the right path. Remember you have the power to choose and create the life that resonates with your true nature. Seek awareness in yourself and your surroundings, keep in mind that reality is much more than what your senses allow you to perceive. You are the alchemist and the creator of your own life. Take control and manifest the outcomes that will best benefit you and be your guide to lead you to your desired path.

We often take our senses too seriously when we assume that reality can only be experienced through our physical senses. However, we can unlock much more potential beyond the everyday world that our senses can detect. When we tap into the power of creativity and learn to unleash our inner creator, we can open ourselves to limitless possibilities and gain true fulfillment. To accomplish this, it is imperative to break down preconceived notions of ourselves, embrace boldness, creativity, and experimentation, and approach life as if it were an adventure. We should take cues from children by having fun, being curious, and not taking life too seriously. By embracing these qualities, we can unlock our fullest potential and unlock a wealth of untold possibilities.