I look into your eyes, you smile, your presence, your Being next to me, just lets me be, be who I truly am, is no need to do anything, I’m free with you, I’m truly free, to be.
Is no need for words, you understand me and I understand you, effortless.
As we walk along, holding hands, I feel connected to you, and at the same time connected with everything around us, we part of it all.
Nothing is rushed, is nothing to do, and nothing is left undone.
I feel cared for, I feel at ease, peaceful, calm.
You are so calm, funny, your quirky sense of humour makes me laugh, we are so alike, it’s weird, but a good weird, together we are so uncomplicated.
I don’t know how, but around you, I don’t feel I have to be any different, as I am, doing my own thing, I don’t feel over conscious of your presence, I just am.
No pretences, no need to fill the silence with unnecessary talk, we comfortable with silence. we just feel.
We are like two fish in the same pond, circling each other, being with each other and with all it is.
We let ourselves be.
“If you are quiet enough, you will hear the flow of the universe. You will feel its rhythm. Go with this flow. Happiness lies ahead. Meditation is key.” – Buddha
Interesting how things change. On my last post I was depressed, exhausted with my own thinking, spiralling out of control, so much negativity, didn’t know my way out. I was trying everything!
I’ve stated working out, went to the gym, start doing weights, at first didn’t felt anything special, I was still depressed, my blood sugars weren’t that good either!
I persevered, I got some weights, build my own gym at home, and something started to change, I felt stronger, I felt proud of myself, more confident! My diabetic nurse told me that I was starting insulin, things started to improve, although I started put on weight, I wasn’t to concern, I kept eating healthy and working out as much as possible.
I know have a nice healthy routine, my diabetes have improved, I’m very proud of myself, still have some weight to loose, but I’m not gone starve myself, I have much more appreciation for who I am, and for what my body is capable of doing.
I feel so pumped! It’s amazing what we can accomplish, I feel more energetic, enthusiastic, so positive and full of love! Its crazy! I believe I’ve found my balance!
Every other day I do weightlifting, alternate with yoga, that is still very important not just for your mental health, body awareness but to also keep you flexible, it compliments weightlifting perfectly!
Weightlifting really has transformed the way I feel, I feel more relaxed, accomplished, overall really good and healthy.
Exercising releases endorphins, and doing it regularly reduces stress, feelings of anxiety and depression, boosts self-esteem, improves sleep and even insulin sensitivity!
How can you stop? I just love how it makes me feel, and I sleep so much better!
I know sometimes you lazy, but remembering how you feel afterwards, all you need is a nice pump up music, and once you start, is no going back!
I have to much to do Is it true? I don’t have to much to do, I can handle more I’m always rushing everything, is it true? No, not always
How do you react when you believe the thought? Who would you be without the thought? I feel stressed, anxious, always thinking of the future, the things I need to do. I would be more peaceful, not in a rush all the time, not speeding my thoughts, I would be free to listen, and to be with the ones I love, I wouldn’t feel so much the need to be alone. I wouldn’t resist the others need of me. I don’t like to ask for help. I don’t like others advice, I’m afraid they will talk too much, and I can’t handle it, fills up my head.
Thoughts I believe in: I don’t have control of anything I’m useless I’m a mess I’m not a great mum I’m not a good driver I’m always tired I feel stupid I don’t have it together I’m lazy I don’t know what to do I feel worthless I feel I’m losing my mind sometimes I don’t know what to do and I don’t know how to do anything, too afraid… of something. I feel a failure, I feel I don’t know what I’m doing, I have no sense of direction. I’m not motivated, I have no energy, I’m not smart, I don’t know how to talk, I want to do too many things at the same time, rushing everything, being impacient. End result? Mistakes, accidents, frustration, self-blame, self-doubt, stress, I feel worthless, incapable, inadequate, disappointed – complete failure! I should be able to it all, multitask, and be in control of it all! Be quick and efficient. Having the answers, be able to make decisions and know what I want. Sometimes it feels I go through life like a loose limb, just going with the flow, not exactly knowing if its this I want or not, I just go with it. I don’t know anything then to wake up and not like what I see… People, places, circumstances might have changed, but I haven’t! Nothing has changed! I still feel like an idiot. is not that I don’t love myself, I just feel so plain, so nothing, unimportant, I have a big heart, and I can be so innocent, what it’s beautiful, but makes feel stupid, because it doesn’t fit in this world. Why I never know what I want? Why is it so hard to decide, to say no? Why I keep so much to myself until I burst? Why is always a drama in my head and in my heart, trying to make me crazy? Do I listen? Not always, but still very much there, trying to make this into a saga. I miss people I’ve lost in my life. I hope this isn’t a mistake, I know it isn’t, I’m learning from this, but it’s been hard. Maybe I should have waited. I know I should have waited, I had my space, I needed time alone and didn’t have it, time to miss him, perhaps, and find myself. Now I feel like a complete mess, everything seems a mess. I know with patience and time I might get there. One thing at the time. I should have more patience, definitely, with myself, have more compassion, why do I pressure myself so much? I just wish I could be quicker, stronger and less dependable. Only now I realised how much I counted on him, to deal with certain things. Now I no longer have that. I have to use money and other people to help me out. I’m finding difficult to seek help from outside when I had it so close. He was my confidant, I did talk to him a lot, and he always helped me, so I didn’t have to go out of my way. Having him by my side did felt like I had it all together. I remember feeling strong, no matter what, I was ok, I felt secure. Do I feel less secure? No, don’t think so… I don’t know, maybe a little, is just different. I’ve lost my confidant, I could talk of anything, he was a good listener, never had much to say, he just listens and was never negative or contradictory. I could just talk, and it keeps playing in my mind: my mum saying I would regret this… will I? No, I don’t think so, I wasn’t in love anymore, was getting destructive, wasn’t going anywhere, anymore, I wasn’t making him happy. In fact, I don’t think I can make anyone happy… I think all I can do it’s making them think I’m making them happy, and when the vail fades away, they haven’t made themselves happy, time passes by, shit hits the fan and people blame each other for their own unhappiness. I don’t think this will be any different, soon or later, the same will happen, because I’m not being true to myself. As usual, I’m doing what I’m supposed to do, and it kills me, but at the same time, I want to make them happy, don’t want anyone to suffer, but isn’t this an injustice to them? As it is to me? I’m such a cliché, I’m making myself confused. Somethings, habits, are so important to them, and I don’t understand why, but I just accept it, I comply, if it makes them happy… What I’m so afraid of? Being alone? Having no one? Why does it have to be so scary? When all I want is to be alone? Or do I? Am I afraid to be lonely? Am I depressed? Am I illuding myself? Back and forward, thinking I’ve come out, and never been out, am I a depressed person or just a very much introverted person? Does it matter? And why does it matter? Why do I need to identify myself? Why do I need to belong in a category? Why do I have to fit anywhere, be anything at all? Why can’t I just cease to exist? (not talking about suicide here!) Wouldn’t be simpler and easier? Why is this “I” so important? Why can’t I just be, separate from identification, from the need to be someone or something.
Wouldn’t just be easier to be in a state of permanent presence, here and now, not identifying with anything, and just feel part of it all? Unafraid and free? Why do I feel this life is so full of shit? So many obligations, responsabilities and limitations. I’m always searching for peace, trying to find it, trying to keep it. What’s so hard about accepting the hard times? The confrontations, the needs of others, why can’t I just give up myself to what is? What am I missing? What am I holding onto? Is my Ego that big? Surely this can’t be that hard? I have glimpses of what freedom is… and then, it vanishes! I’m lost again in the darkness. What the fuck is wrong with me? If I can’t change this about myself, nothing will change. I need to accept help, I need to ask for help. I need to have more of what I don’t want and kill this resistance! I need to find myself again, unafraid! Free of stories. everything has a Ying and a Yang, negative and positive, I guess this is my negative, resisting only makes it worse, I need to make peace with myself. mistakes, pain is there to awaken me, isn’t? I need to let go, I need to let go of the image of what or who I want to do or be, of what I want, I have to stop resisting! It’s such a beautiful day, and I’m in pain, pain in my heart and anxiety in my throat, why am I making myself so miserable? Where is the switch button?
It only takes a change of home to make me down spiral.
Stress, self-doubt, frustration, anxiety, depression, all come at once. My head is with an overload of things that, I felt I need to do, quickly, efficiently, perfectly managed and on my own.
Always on my own.
Stubbornly thinking that is no need to seek help.
“I can do it all, it is my responsibility to do it, no one else, so just let’s do it all on my own,” naively thinking I have time.
In my head I’m at war with myself, upset, disappointed, I feel a failure, I didn’t manage on my own, I didn’t do a good job, I’m failing at motherhood, I’m disappointing others, I’m too stubborn, I’m always rushing, my head is all over the place, I’m thinking of a million things, and nothing seems to work, not like I wanted them too. And because my head is all over the place, more things, silly things, mistakes happen, and I get even more frustrated and disappointed with myself.
I feel stupid, like an idiot, that doesn’t know what is doing, unable to make proper decisions, and making the same mistakes time and time again.
Haven’t I learned anything?
After so many years of meditation, I should be able to stop this incessant array of thoughts, depressive thoughts, rushing thoughts, thoughts that are making me feel like a ball of fire is in my throat, and the pain in my chest is unbearable.
I feel I’ve lost myself, can’t find me, I’m desperate for a solution, and haven’t enough time to find it.
I know I have the answers, somewhere, but I’m too tired, exhausted! Too overwhelmed to stop, just like a bomb waiting to explode.
Then all got too much. “I need help!” I let go, I have no choice, I’ve open up to people. I’ve let go of the idea that I could do it all on my own.
I’ve asked myself, “Why are you doing this to yourself? Why cause so much misery? what are you trying to prove? What are you so afraid of?”
Once I felt the stillness in me, was there, always been, a sense of calmness comes back to me.
“Everything will be all right, this is nothing, you know is nothing.” “This is just life happening to you, and you just have to be awake to it, don’t resist it, let go!”
“Let go of wanting things to go your way, because you know that’s not the way it works.”
“Let go of perfection.”
“Accept that things do go wrong, people will get disappointed, upset with you, and that’s ok.”
“Accept yourself as you are, you beautiful as you are!”
I guess once you are tired, you have schedules, all gets a bit too much, and it’s only normal. you know it is, but you still push yourself over your limits.
You have to love yourself, accept your limitations, accept the good and bad moments, accept that you will have moments of pure insanity, where everything goes wrong, and you just can’t get it right, moments of extreme anxiety, moments where you think, “is just too much for me here”, ‘I can’t do this!”
It’s ok to feel powerless, disappointed, upset, a failure. Go within and question yourself, if it’s true, all of this you feel, all these thoughts of yourself are true. Is it true, can you see it? Stop and question yourself, and you realise, isn’t true, you are not a complete failure, you might make mistakes, but you are not a complete failure. And it’s within this dark moments that you can find your window to freedom,
Realise you not your thoughts, you are more than your thoughts, and is an unlimited source of love out there for you.
Be compassionate and kind towards yourself.
Do not believe in your thoughts. Question them.
Is nothing for you to do, and no one for you to be. – Zen Proverb
You can spend years longing for a change, unhappy with your life, you hoping for a miracle, to change things, you longing for a change in work, in a relationship, lifestyle.
You go over and over thinking how to do it and when to do it, imagining how it would be. wishing that things will be different.
You try to make the best, out of a situation you not happy about.
And then life surprises you.
All of a sudden, something clicks and change starts to happen, you finally have the conviction to change, or something happens that make change happen, finally, a world of possibilities is out there for you, the outcome is never what you would expect though, it never is.
The secret is to let it go, let it be.
They say be careful about what you wish for. they are right, be very careful, because never happens as you imagine. and things don’t always come as you would hope for.
Embrace change nevertheless, change is good, gives us a challenge, and if you have faith, you might learn a thing or two.
You wish to become healthier, the process is hard, you dought yourself, you go back and forward with your decisions, until something really clicks and you do it for you, because you know, it’s the best for you.
The same with relationships.
Unhappy for years you hope for change, you hope for a better future, you wanna let go of the past, but you see yourself again doubting, you go again back and forward in your decisions, until enough is enough.
We have to reach braking point sometimes, take that leap of faith.
Then when you make your move, things start to change, don’t be afraid, don’t doubt, have perseverance,belive.
Don’t let yourself down, when things don’t turn up exactly how you hoped for, be strong, maybe things haven’t come out exactly as you wanted, but don’t be discouraged, learn with it, make your goal to work with it, never give up.
Your job, you wanna change, but don’t know how, you look for other jobs, but you can’t find any, or you scared to change, of the unknown, don’t be.
If you really wanna change, just do it, or work on accepting where you are, it all comes down to the way you feel, the way you think about it.
Whatever you do, be true to yourself, be honest in your intentions, what you want and why you want it.
Don’t delude yourself, sometimes we feel unhappy about a situation, but in reality, isn’t the situation, but the way you think about it, the way you feel, something within you isn’t being fulfilled, search within yourself for answers, don’t be afraid of digging deep, what’s really bothering you.
Sometimes we just unhappy with ourselves, missing compassion, kindness and love for ourselves.
Have a moment for yourself, seat down and let yourself feel, whatever is going on, embrace what’s happening, let your thoughts come and go, just be present, feel it, send some love to yourself, appreciate this moment, where you are, and what you are, embrace your being, all of what is. Have the courage to look within.
From my heart to yours – Namasté
“To remain indifferent to the challenges we face is indefensible. If the goal is noble, whether or not it is realized within our lifetime is largely irrelevant. What we must do therefore is to strive and persevere and never give up.” – Dalai Lama
I’m 38 weeks pregnant, with a baby boy, I’m calling Max.
I’ve dreamed of the future, a baby boy growing and running around the house, doing silly stuff, and jenny, his big sister, playing with him and helping changing nappies.
Looking forward to my c-section on the 14th of January.
My cousins are here to celebrate new’s year, I’m calm, happy, joyful, jumping up and down in my exercise ball, completely unaware of what’s to come.
2sd Of January 2016
I wake up feeling different, without pain, discomfort, feeling lighter, as I seat in the sofa, I feel like I’m not pregnant at all. I try to feel movement, is no movement, I drink freshwater (that always does the trick), no movement. I raise my concerns with my then-husband.
We head up to the hospital.
As I lay in the hospital bed, one nurse comes with the heart monitor doppler, no heartbeat, she runs out, another nurse comes with a sonogram, the baby is there, they can’t find the heartbeat, nurses looking back and forward between me and the monitor, they look at each other, they call a doctor.
He comes, does his thing and says: “I’m sorry is no heartbeat”. I lay there emotionless, chocked, not knowing what to say, I just want to go home.
The doctor tells me “we have to induce you, you will have to deliver the boy naturally”. “Can’t I have a c-section?” I ask, “we don’t recommend it, will be too risky, if you have another pregnancy”, I agree quietly.
“Can I just go home?” I asked blankly, “yes but you will have to return tomorrow, to start the process”, the doctor replies.
I went home, feeling my belly, completely in chock, nothing and everything in my mind, tomorrow I have to come back to deliver my son, my dead son.
3rd of January, 2016
Early morning, got up, got myself ready for this, packing the bag, like if I was delivering a live baby boy, that I was so longing for. Arrived in the hospital got my dressing gown, they start the process. they give me so much medication I’m unable to eat, everything I eat goes straight into the toilet, all I have now is water, I drink water, a couple of minutes later I’m sick, and all it is, is water, I go like this for nearly 36 hours, nurses put an IV line on me.
4th January 2016
I’m having contractions, the process is starting, a few good hours after, I deliver Max.
I can’t look, I’m exhausted, delivering a dead baby isn’t easy, is no help from the baby, it’s really hard work.
I just wanna sleep, die to the world.
Its night time and I just want to go home, they wash him, they made nice photos and give me a lovely box with a book, pictures and a teddy.
The priest comes, I smile and just say “it happens”, he looks at me weirdly, he tells me a few days later, he found very odd, such reaction, to such an event. “I was in a choke, father”.
I go home without a baby, left in a basket, in a tiny room, like if it was grocery, by the nurse, my world falls.
I’m leaving without my baby Max.
The days that follow are a blur, nights of drinking, crying, staring at my arms void of a baby, that suppose to be there, being nurtured.
Nothing makes sense.
I spend all of January and February like this. Then I had enough, was pointless for me to be home doing nothing, when I’m supposed to be doing something, having sleepless nights feeding a baby, changing nappies, playing, taking pictures and showing the world how I was such a happy Mama.
I went back to work.
I had days I cried at my client’s house, days just passed blankly, I was just existing.
A few weeks later doctors tell me “you got diabetes type 2”.
Depression settles in.
More was to come.
March 2016
I got a phone call from the state agency, “the landlady wants the property, you will have to vacate in a month”.
The property that we so much loved, the property we made sure we could stay for a good few years, the property that Jenny has been brought up.
The property we invested so much on and toke us long enough to find, just perfect for our needs.
We moved out the following month, just the 3 of us, squeezing all of our belongings in a 1 bedroom flat, having to sell more than half of what we had.
Anxiety came to befriend depression
May 2016
Our best friend Mark, dies suddenly at work, with an open heart valve.
The friend that came to see us nearly every weekend, the friend that made us laugh so much, the friend that help us through all this ordeal, the friend that was there for us when we needed it, a true friend.
Our loss was great, we were angry, what’s going on? Why is all this happening? We are going to move up to Crawley again, this place isn’t good for us anymore, its bad luck.
We never moved
We just process our grief
2017
A year of change.
I’m in antidepressants, leaving me numb, GP is increasing the dose, every month, I’m sick of it all, I don’t feel anything, I’m only existing, I’m in a black hole of nothing, what’s the point of leaving?
With the help of a friend, I come out of antidepressants.
I seek for help at work
A counsellor guides me through a meditation
It gives me hope.
Here starts my journey into Meditation, Buddhism, and Yoga.
I change, and I change a lot, 3 years from then, I’m now a completely different person
I’m grateful, peaceful, more compassionate, kinder, loving and caring, I see the world in a completely different light, I understand now.
Obstacles don’t block the path. They are the Path. – Zen Proverb
“Yoga is the journey of the self, through the self, to the self.” – The Bhagavad Gita
I suffered an injury at work and sprain my back, spending a week at home treating my back with hot and cold compresses, I could barely walk.
Before that, I’ve been suffering from lower back pain for over 8 years, my shoulders constantly in knots.
I was at my wit’s end.
I’ve decided to go to a Chiropractor, my chiropractor said would be a few weeks, she could barely touch my lower back without me screaming, was so painful and inflamed. I thought would be a quick fix, couldn’t be more wrong.
After a month, I was still going every week, costing my wallet. When I asked how long the treatment would last, she wouldn’t give me a straight answer, I had a funny feeling then – she wanted to see me for as long as possible, for her own profit, of course.
Funny enough on the top floor of the Chiropractor, was a Yoga studio, and I was like “hmmm, really?”
I did my research into yoga, its many benefits, to my surprise, yoga helps improve posture, healing back and shoulder ailments.
I’ve also learned is a good way to go within, to prepare for meditation.
As I start my adventure into yoga,
my body relaxes, feels lighter, flexible, I become more mindful of how it moves, how it feels, how it reacts,
become aware of the tension in my shoulders, so tense they are up to my ears,
my mind more still, peaceful, quiet.
Here some of many benefits of yoga:
increase in flexibility, balance and strength
reduces stress, anxiety and depression
improves sleep
reduces inflammation
reduces chronic pain
weight loss
improves posture
strengths bone
increases blood flow
boost immunity
drains your lymph nodes
reduces blood pressure
regulates adrenal glands
lowers blood sugar
encourages healthy eating
helps you focus, find stillness and connection
releases tension
improves the way you breathe
protects you from injury
peace of mind
overall well-being
No wonder Yoga has become so popular.
We live in a chaotic world rushing, doing and thinking constantly none stop, stressing our minds and bodies daily.
Find sometime to unwind, to nourish, to reconnect, to breathe.
I never realised I was an introvert, I just thought I was different, weird 😅, after all, I’m an introvert…
Since childhood, enjoying my own time alone… leaving in my own little world… apparently, you already born that way, go figure, I’ve only learned about it, now!
Are you an Introvert?
Introverts enjoy spending time alone, they also like to enjoy social time. But alone time feels peaceful and refreshing – recharging!
Sometimes social time can be draining, especially if, in contact with new people, large crowds, or noisy environments. Spending a long time, in this kind of setting, will kick you out.
They like to spend time with close friends, they can even seem like an extrovert, interaction with close ones are fulfilling and enjoyable, but once it becomes a larger group, you be sure to start feeling drained out, in no time, it’s their kryptonite! 😂
Introverts like to work alone, it’s alone that they can concentrate, be more creative, more productive and show the best results.
They can also work in a team but, they need to withdraw after meetings, discussions, or any other kind of interaction. To gather their thoughts and recharge.
They have a very rich mind, spending lots of time thinking, dreaming, imagining, pondering, creating their own little world, and feeling very comfortable on it.
They tend to zone out, in conversations, not because they are not interested, but in their own head, whatever they thinking or imagining, is much more interesting.
They prefer to lay low, away from the spotlight.
But you do have introverts that are artists, performers, business leaders, and they go on stage to perform, give speeches, make presentations, and are comfortable with it, a skill they have learned to master, even when it goes against their nature.
They struggle to find the right words, on the moment, don’t always known what to say. To then, be thinking long after, of what they should or could of said.
They find writing a more comfortable way to express their feelings, it’s on writing that, they can express clearer and more compressively what’s on their mind and heart. They can really struggle with spoken words.
They go deep into thinking, about relationships, loved ones, friends, work, life in general, being creative, reading, and pursuing their dreams.
They seek meaning in everything, relationships, goals, conversations – they don’t do shallow.
They feel out of place when pressured to be more social.
What is this deep feeling we have that we call Love?
Love is one of the most talked feelings, artists paint about it, write and sing about it.
People love their partners, their family, love their pets, their things, food, activities, music, etc
Love is the inspiration behind beautiful movies, books, music, and art.
People talk about love all the time.
But what is love?
Wikipedia says and I quote:
“Love encompasses a range of strong and positive emotional and mental states, from the most sublime virtue or good habit, the deepest interpersonal affection and to the simplest pleasure.[1][2] An example of this range of meanings is that the love of a mother differs from the love of a spouse, which differs from the love of food. Most commonly, love refers to a feeling of a strong attraction and emotional attachment.[3]”
What is love to you?
What is love to me?
Love is more than a feeling, it’s an energy that comes from within and through me.
I love people, their energy, their light, the light I see in everyone… when I can see their true nature, beautiful and pure. not the external self, not what they show to me by words, or actions, but by what I can see or feel from them. that inner presence within themselves.
I love nature, music, the energy that surrounds me, I love the feeling of connection with What Is.
I love feeling One with it all.
When a person so called ‘loves’ someone, they soon or later, want to control them, have expectations from them, idealise them, judge them… the need to possess, to want them for themselves, to need them but,
‘need’ isn’t love, is a greedy feeling of wishing to possess that person, to own them, and a person isn’t yours to keep.
Nothing in this world is yours to keep, not even your body. Accepting this, you will understant what true love is.
My vision of love is, if you truly love them, you will accept them exactly as they are, no need to change a thing, accept the good with the bad, be there for them if they need, most of all, even if they hurt you, to not be angry, rather accept their limitations as much as your own, and move own.
The hardest realisation is,
you create your own suffering by the expectations, thoughts and attachment, you create.
Accept it, and let go. If you truly love or loved someone, you will set them free, free to be themselves, with or without you.
“I love you, I need you in my life, I need you to make me happy”, you may think that’s love, but that’s attachment, attachment brings you suffering.
In this civilization we have been brought up to believe we need people, things to make us happy, we attach to everything in hope for fulfilment, (that will never come) endless pit of suffering.
Isn’t beautiful to love a beautiful bird and let it see fly free, isn’t beautiful to love the sea and it’s waves, enjoy its waters, but not destroy its nature? Isn’t it beautiful to love a flower, see it bloom, and let it be just as it is? Beautiful.
Nature provides us with the most deepest displays of true love, always giving freely not expecting nothing in return
That’s love.
Do you know that bigger and taller trees, that can have easier acess to the sun and CO2, share their nutrients to the smaller trees, so they can grow?
We have so many examples of love in nature, where animals and plants cooperate between them, for a better ecosystem, why can’t we humans follow that example? Why is it so hard? Why are we so greedy?
The more we want, the more we have, and the more we have the more we want, is no end.
As humans, we always trying to change what we ‘love’, in hope of making it better, to fulfil expectations, we are missing the point.
Why we always end up destroying what we ‘love’?
We ‘love’ hearth, but are slowly destroying it, we ‘love’ animals, but still eating some of them, and destroying the environment in the process.
If we ‘love’ it, why change it? Why is it so hard to accept things as they are? To see the beauty of it all, as it is?
“The Tao does nothing. But Leaves Nothing Undone” – Tao Te Ching.
Nature lover, close up of child hands hugging tree with copy space
Souls that live for themselves, to themselves, free from other’s – other’s thoughts, other’s perspectives, other’s expectations.
They see the world from a different perspective than most. They focus on their growth, they believe in themselves to, create a life they dreamed of without attachments.
They are free to experience the world in its fullest, without restrictions.
They are strong, committed, and willing to adventure, adventure to conquer their goals, their dreams.
They have a clear understanding of themselves, they dedicate much of their lives pursuing their purpose in life, finding life’s meaning.
They can be fearless, adventuring through life with open eyes, and open heart, open soul, ready for the challenges that life brings them.
Some dedicate their life to others; after dedicating so much time on their own, rediscovering themselves, experiencing the world and growing; they find meaning, purpose, by assisting others to discover themselves.
In the end, we all the same, is just some of us have more zest for self discovery.
It doesn’t mean that they don’t feel lonely sometimes, or that they isolate themselves from social encounters, they can be very social, but they understand the importance of oneself and their limitations.
They can come across selfish or egocentric, but I find that to be much further from the truth, they just value themselves, and use life experiences to grow, that growth doesn’t just help them, but others around them.
If you dedicate much of your time seeking your dreams, conquering your goals, dedicating time to yourself to experience life on your own, to experience the world as it is, to observe your thoughts and feelings, you not only have a better understanding of yourself, but also others.
Some of us are entangled with life commitments and other people’s expectations, thoughts, feelings, and end up not knowing if we leaving for yourselves or others, we end up forgetting our own identity.
If you can’t be your authentic self, you voiding the world from your true potential.
I know isn’t easy to find time for ourselves in this chaotic world sometimes, but, time is only relative, it will be what you want it to be.
If you want to have more time for yourself find it!
Be more mindful of your presence through the world, be aware of your thoughts, feelings, your body, your steps, the way you do things, the way you speak, feel your presence at this exact moment!
Mindfulness is a great way to dedicate ‘time’ to ourselves, we forget to breathe sometimes, so breathe, consciously feel your chest rise and fall, feel your feet on the ground… you can be mindful anytime and anywhere, with a little practice it becomes a habit, and what a better way to remind ourselves that we are alive, here and now!
What a better way to honor ourselves and others but, to just be present.
By present, I mean truly present, where you feel the world through your being, free from conceptions and attachments.
Much Love And Pece From My Heart To Yours – Namasté
“Life gives you plenty of time to do whatever you want to do if you stay in the present moment.” — Deepak Chopra
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