Tag: well-being

Yin Yang Journey

In the depths of despair, we find ourselves questioning the very essence of our existence. But amidst the storms of life, there lies a profound truth waiting to be discovered. Like a lotus emerging from the mud, our struggles pave the way for transformation. Through darkness, we learn to appreciate the radiance of light.

Our journey is one of profound purpose, navigating through the spectrum of human emotions to find meaning in every experience. Just as the yin and yang dance in harmony, we cannot fully grasp the beauty of life without acknowledging its shadows.

Yet, why do we find it so challenging to embrace the gift of existence? Trapped in the monotony of daily routines, we yearn for something more, something that nourishes our souls. Even when our bodies feel weighed down by the burdens of life, nature beckons us with its divine inspiration.

With every gust of wind and crash of waves, we are reminded of our connection to something greater. Yet, too often, we find ourselves confined by fear and societal expectations, hesitant to break free from the chains that bind us.

But there are moments, fleeting yet profound, when we taste the sweetness of liberation. In those instances, we are bathed in the light of love and joy, experiencing a glimpse of our true essence. Yet, as quickly as it comes, it slips away, leaving us longing for more.

In the midst of our mundane existence, we cling to these moments of transcendence, dreaming of the next opportunity to reconnect with the divine. For it is in those moments that we find solace, that we find ourselves closer to the essence of God.

So, let us not be afraid to stray from the beaten path, to embrace the unknown with open arms. For it is through our willingness to explore the depths of our souls that we truly find the light we seek.

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Annoying people!

Imagine someone who irritates you, someone who gets on your nerves in less than a minute! Someone who contradicts you, someone who doesn’t understand you, someone you don’t understand either—how can they think the way they do or act the way they act? You can’t grasp what drives that person to do things that are “unthinkable” or without explanation to you. And because you don’t understand, it frustrates you, and you think about it for hours or even days on end. You replay it like a cassette tape on repeat because it simply confuses you. You can’t accept it, and at the same time, a desire arises within you to control something you dislike, something that doesn’t fit your standards. You feel indignant, the need for the other person to change what they did, what they said, or even their way of being because it’s not right to you! You need an apology, you need that person to acknowledge their wrongdoing, and for you to be right! Or at the very least, for them to recognize you!

Why? Have you ever thought about it? Why do we get so irritated by things/people we can’t change? Simply put, they’re not like us! But you don’t like it; it’s hard for you to accept, and you keep hitting a wall every day about something that happened days or hours ago. You keep reliving it endlessly, hoping that it will change out of the blue. Or you waste time playing scenarios in your head about what you could say, do, or completely modify!

What if I told you that this isn’t you? How you feel in these moments is an indication of disconnection from your true self. When you find yourself in a negative space, it’s your inner being telling you that your thoughts are not in harmony with your true self and its beliefs. And why is that? Because your true self comes from love! A love that encompasses everything and everyone, that doesn’t judge, condemn, or have expectations—it simply accepts.

On the other hand, your Ego believes in separation, injustice, victimhood, anger, justification, and aggression. The Ego simply lacks the ability to see the bigger picture, unlike your inner being that comes from love. The Ego is tempting; it likes attention, drama, and the feeling of importance. It doesn’t trust, doesn’t believe, always trying to preserve itself and justify its existence.

If you believe in yourself, have faith in yourself, love yourself, and feel at peace with yourself, nothing anyone does to you will bring feelings of revolt but rather compassion, even if the other person has done something considered “so negative.”

Negativity and positivity, right and wrong, are subjective; they are not absolute truths! Therefore, we cannot govern ourselves by these imposed and learned standards!

The choice is in your hands: how to react and the perspective that resonates with your being. The right answer is revealed in how you feel! Sometimes it’s difficult, I know, but trust your inner compass. If you don’t feel good, it’s because your decision doesn’t align with the vibration of your soul/inner being. If you feel good, then believe that it’s for you, it’s the right answer, it comes from the right place, and it’s the response that your being believes will benefit you the most.

Try changing the narrative! And if it’s difficult, try letting go of the thought altogether! Shift your vibration to something more positive, think about something you like, people you love, people who make you happy, or events, your pets—anything that can change your frequency. You, more than anyone, deserve to be happy, to feel loved—by yourself! Your

essence knows this and translates it into how you feel! And that’s why it’s so important to be open to how you feel and to the thoughts that occupy your mind.

The more you maintain a positive vibration, the more you attract circumstances and people that align with that vibration! It doesn’t mean it will always be a bed of roses, but it’s important to maintain an open perspective and believe in the best for ourselves! Stay mindful of your thoughts and change course when necessary. Remember that the thoughts you focus on manifest, especially when you put strong emotions behind them. So, focus on love, joy, and well-being! The more you practice, the more you’ll see results that prove this to be true!

You have influence and the ability to control the direction of your life more than you think! Give yourself love, align with yourself, make an effort to know yourself better, to love yourself as you deserve. Give yourself time, give yourself space! You deserve everything and more; don’t forget who you are and where you come from! You are made of the stars in the sky, pure consciousness, pure abundance! Believe in yourself! You are a magnificent being!

With much love and peace to all of you. 🙏🏻❤️

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Inspired

How often do I have narratives in my mind, stories to tell? How often do I have immense thoughts of what I should write? How many inspiring voices do I hear, only to never put them on paper? They slip away as if I’m afraid that once they reach the page, they won’t be the same words anymore, won’t carry the same sound, enthusiasm, or intention.

When people ask me where I’m from, I don’t know how to answer. I was born in one country, spent my adolescence in another, and now I’m growing old in the one I’m in. How do I respond? I don’t belong anywhere, yet I’m everywhere. I feel connected to everything. I’m not just from one place; I am of the world, and I feel the world within me. There is no separation, just as there is no separation between us.

It confuses me to see people getting upset with one another, not realizing that they are only upsetting themselves. Why criticize or judge? Why harbor ill will towards others? Don’t you see that we are all one? Can’t you see that your own restlessness doesn’t come from outside? If you’re upset about something someone else did, look within yourself for the reason why. There is an illusion of separateness, a selfish and petty tendency to believe that there isn’t enough, that we need to defend our territory or attack others out of fear that they might take something away from us, be it material or not.

I’m not saying that if someone does something to you, you shouldn’t defend yourself, but it’s your reaction to what’s happening, what’s going on inside you when something dissatisfying occurs. Are you reacting out of a sense of lack, fear, or pain? Observe.

Occasionally, I encounter people who get irritated, people who aren’t accustomed to my enthusiasm. I’m used to it by now. Some feel threatened by our radiance, while others simply don’t live with inner peace; they seek it externally without success. And when the external world doesn’t meet their expectations, there’s a clash. It’s normal, and I understand. For me, these are opportunities to grow, to become more open, kinder, and more compassionate towards the suffering of others. At the same time, I observe my own suffering because I’m not exempt from it, none of us are, unless you’ve reached the enlightenment of your being.

I often feel like I don’t belong anywhere, lacking the foundations that most people have or seek, unable to plan for the future. All the conditions imposed on me during my upbringing mean nothing because I didn’t hold onto anything. In fact, I let go of everything! They are all illusions.

We grow up thinking we need “that” relationship, that we need a certain house, children, work, a car, and so on—the list keeps growing. I had all of those things gradually, and gradually I “returned” them because I didn’t find happiness in any of them. Happiness is sought from within! Until you realize that, you stumble around, filling yourself with things, projects, more work, and less time for yourself. Less time alone to find and realize that you already came into this world with everything you need, right here.

This doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy certain things or fulfilling relationships that warm my heart. However, true fulfillment only happens when your being feels complete without them. Only then can you truly savor external experiences because they are a reflection of your inner self.

I discovered that a part of me loves the shadows, solitude, finding itself in music and writing! In a book where words make sense to the soul. The silence between two people who are accomplices is worth more

than compliments. Strolling arm in arm and occasionally exchanging a glance and a smile.

I discovered that while others speak passionately and without a filter about what’s in their hearts and minds, I prefer to remain silent, listening not with my ears but with my soul. The words pass through me, little remains, but what stays is how they speak, their presence, their gestures, and their aura. I feel the warmth/energy of their presence, and it brings me great joy just to be in their company! I feel that words are mere distractions from the essence of their being. So, I filter and focus on what’s most important. Beautiful people expressing themselves, emanating their energy, often unaware of the interaction we’re having beyond words. They leave an impression on me, and I leave one on them. We exchange a “currency” of energy.

It’s so beautiful to see a world beyond what our minds have learned to “see.” To see a world full of energies and colors!

I’ve learned not to cling to the fact that many people still live in their own prisons because, after all, I’m no more or less than any of them. I feel an urge to help, but I don’t intrude. Who am I to do so? All I offer is an intention of love and faith, wishing them happiness, self-discovery, self-love, and the most peaceful path possible. May their pains be seen as lessons, not defeats, but as achievements. May these lessons bring them more structure in what makes them happy and what they need to let go of.

I discovered the silence between words, the silence in music, silence even in the midst of chaos! This silence is so full of peace and love, so welcoming. It cradles you and takes you to a place I like to call “HOME.”

I hope that each one of us has the ability, no matter where we are or who we’re with, to always return home. To be at home!

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Less is more

Less is more, think less, do less, and trust that will be done either way, just give it to the universe to deliver its bit, trust that its here to support you, ask it for guidance, to help you

When you feel you have so much to do, so much thinking, so much… just delegate, see what you can do now, and the rest leave it to the universe! Don’t feel like you have to do everything, don’t get overwhelmed, don’t try to control everything, the outcomes, the results, just trust that whatever comes its the best outcome you could have, the one that you need! Sometimes isn’t exactly what we want, but definitely what we need. Just trust is for your best, its always working in your favour! Less resistance will allow for the results to come in quicker, and in very unexpected ways! 

Is when you let go, when you just surrender, that you see miracles happening! 

It’s when I finally surrender that things start to work in a much easier flow, we are so rushed into doing, we just get so involved in what we doing and how things owe to be, that we forget to just enjoy the process, and trust, whatever the outcome, it will be just right. Letting go of the outcome, letting go of the ideia, letting go of the goal. Of course plan, but then let it go, how you will get there it will show up to you at the right time, let go, smile and just trust your inner voice! 

Sometimes we work with difficult people, it is hard to let go, we resist, we get annoyed, frustrated, we just want to avoid that person, or just turn away from them, but that will not achieve anything. That person is in your path for a reason, aren’t you curious? Smile, don’t analise it, just smile. Don’t see anything as right or wrong, just see it for what it is, can you? Can you make peace with what it is, how it is? Can you let go of the need to change it, change someone? And then perhaps change how you see them, not for them, but for you! Because you need that peace! What about realising you are not separate from them, and even if its hard to believe at first, you are not you, without them, and vice-versa, as we are no one without others! Is through others that we find ourselves! Isn’t that magical? Finding all the feelings you experience with each and every encounter? And realising you are the master of your own emotions and thoughts, and you can easily change how you feel and think, once you surrender! Let go of individual you think you are, let go of identifying yourself, limiting yourself. You are not this personality that you have constructed for yourself! You are so much more! Limitless, boundless, connected to all, part of all, not separated but unified with all! Believing you are separate it will only bring you suffering! We are not separate, someone isn’t more or less then you, someone isn’t being bad to you, you might perceive it that way, and I know in same cases this is hard to even conceive by the human mind, but really all what happens to us has been chosen by us, and for us, so we could learn, grow! Not us as this Ego we identify from, but Us this unlimited being/soul/presence we are!  

Ego is so tricky, so persuasive, we think we are this and that, we defend our position, we limit ourselves by what we can and can’t do,  but in relation… we can be and do anything and everything! But i find myself just being the happiest when I simply Am, just here, smiling and enjoying the moment as it is! And its beautiful to have surprises everyday! Because again I have no expectations! Everything is like new, every moment is new, so you always living not knowing what’s coming, but enjoying every moment with a inner smile, with gratitude! Every moment should be taken like a gift! Just to be able to be outsider and look around, all the colours, the beautiful sky, the nature, even when it seems dark, rainy, cold, everything has its beauty, and everything should be taken with a glad heart! Live simply! 

If something isn’t right, doesn’t feel right, go within, into stillness, beyond thought and see what happens!? You will find some kind of peace, peace with what it is, and if not, wonder what brought you to feel this way. More times than not is the Ego talking, being indignant, frustrated, wanting things to be different, not accepting things how they are, questioning, or justifying, or defending, being a victim… whatever it is, if it doesn’t feel right is because isn’t in alignment with the true YOU. Your inner self, your inner guidance, your higher self! Because your higher self knows your worth, knows what’s there for you, maybe you just don’t have the clarity to see it, or you living in fear, but it is there, once you allow it, let go, trust, surrender, you might able to see it coming, you might able to see the light beyond the dark, you might able to smile and just relax, smile and finally be at peace. Peace with who you are and what you are. Be at peace with whatever is outside, because is just a reflection of what’s within you. And every little componente is super important for your growth, so welcome it with open arms! Be joyful, like a child, be ready for the adventure, be excited, you don’t know what’s coming, and you don’t need to know! That’s the magic! You just follow the path smiling, eager with what you will be learning at every step! 

And of course you will be experiencing sadness, stress, frustration, the secret? Be the observer of that, smile, don’t take yourself to seriously, just enjoy the ride! Why be so consumed about an emotion, if doesn’t bring you pleasure? Understand it, let it come and let it go, whenever its ready, make peace with it, its part of your path, so accept it as such! Don’t fight or resist, welcome it, see what you can learn with the most difficult emotions. Be happy to learn! Be like a blank canvas! 

Isn’t it funny that we grow up learning all about the world we live in, how everything is suppose to work, and then the secret to happiness is lo unlearn it? To start a new? Question everything and finding your real YOU? Isn’t this wonderful? 

Of course it isn’t for most, because you simply get fed up with this, and you just feel like is a big joke on you, you tired of this game! You don’t see the point of it all! I know, I’ve been there! Gets frustrating, tiresome, you just want to give up! You can’t make sense of anything! But its when you ‘give up’ that something happens, is when you surrender that the magic happens, when you trust that something bigger is here for you! And you let go of all that weight on you, all that responsibility you put in yourself, all that need for control, for having things a certain way…  

Trust me it gets easier if you Let Go! Trust and Believe in the Universe! Surrender! Let go of the person you think you are, and just be open to what it shows you! 

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Moved by Spirit

Sometimes we do things we don’t even realise where they coming from. Its egoless, its stronger than anything, you just know you have to do it, you can’t think of the implications you can’t see what’s coming next, you just have this force propelling you forward that you can’t ignore it. I call it spirit calling, I call it guidance, inner guidance, higher self, or spirit guides, or simply your soul and heart. This inner calling comes out of no where, I can’t even question it, deny it. Later I find myself ‘suffering’ the consequences of my actions, but isn’t bad or good, is a learning process, I understand why the reason behind it, but it does bring a lot of pain, but also a lot of learning, a lot of awareness, an ego death. We realise how many limitations we have put into ourselves, how many expectations, illusions we had, we realise how many boundaries, barriers, we have put up. And if we have the courage, and now faced with ourselves, this barrier, limitations, will have to come crumbling down. It’s a difficult, painful process, but so needed. Waking up isn’t an easy process. Realising the fabric of life. It’s enlightening. 

But isn’t just about you, is about others… you realise the impact you made on others, the ‘suffering’ you are causing them, you can deal with your own, perhaps, but how are they dealing with it, you can only hope, have faith, that they reach the same platform as you, of understanding better about themselves and life around them. To understand the fabric of life. You hope with your heart tight, because you still care, you still love, but we have to allow for this things to happen. You have to have faith in them, that they can go through it. And see the light within them. You hope to see them free, because they been untangled for so long, in this illusion… you love them unconditionally, no matter what you trust the process, you allow them to be, is so much you can do, you cause the havoc, now be witness of its destruction. Being a witness isn’t easy either, and that why is for the both of us, one action, two parts. Doesn’t matter who started it. The ego will say:’who are you, to think you are the one to do it?” The ego will push you in every direction, trying to pull you apart. Saying you are reckless, you are destructive, you have done it again, you have caused ‘suffering’ to another being. Guilt will play with you if you let it, fear, pain, until you realise ‘who’ you are, and what you made of. 

You then witness the destruction of self, hold habits, hold patterns. Things hang in the balance, you don’t know how it will turn up, but you have faith, you don’t know how the other is dealing with it and if it doesn’t turn out the best way… well thats their path too, soon or later they will get there, they have many incarnations to go through to realise their potential. You were just a fraction, a little piece in this immense puzzle, a little ripple, you done your part, now it’s time to trust the process… you don’t need to understand it all, you simply need to trust. 

The ego likes to create illusions, the ego likes to point fingers, likes to question, the ego is there to protect you in a way, but you need to be careful to not let it go to far… without it you can’t reach another ‘level’ but if you get stuck in its claws, then you definitely loose ‘yourself’. You become a creature of habit, a creature that plays safe, you let fear come in, doubt, you let judgmental, criticism, and all that its low energy come in to your frequency. Be careful, because it’s ever so cunning, alluring. Be very aware out it makes you feel. You are here to love, to feel love, to be love, to share and transmite love. You are here to unite, to be part of the whole, to become whole, to allow, to accept, to transmute. If whatever comes isn’t in that frequency, then you must change it, you must dig deep in your heart and soul, to find a better way. Separation is the way of the ego, union is the way of love. Be aware of it although, do not repress it, do not resist it, allow it to be so you can better understand it, but do not feed more negative energy into it, just allow it, and try and bring love into it. Open yourself to possibility, to freedom of spirit. Open yourself to a more fearless and powerful being. 

You are so powerful, your thoughts, your energy, it’s so important to the whole, together we can build so many beautiful things, together we can do anything. 

Might your actions always spring from love, unconditional love. Might you have the wisdom/ awareness to ‘understand’, ’see’ a bigger picture. To have a better perspective in life. Might you be able to change the chemistry of your cells to be more receptive, allowing, loving, caring, no matter what happens to you, always have faith, and always act in service of love, with love intention. Don’t let ego bring bitterness into your heart, separation, judgment. Might you be always able to see yourself in another. And understand them just like you do yourself. They are mirrors of you, be open to learning, to understanding, to compassion, to listening, be open. 

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Why Yoga ?

“Yoga is the journey of the self, through the self, to the self.” – The Bhagavad Gita

I suffered an injury at work and sprain my back, spending a week at home treating my back with hot and cold compresses, I could barely walk.

Before that, I’ve been suffering from lower back pain for over 8 years, my shoulders constantly in knots.

I was at my wit’s end.

I’ve decided to go to a Chiropractor, my chiropractor said would be a few weeks, she could barely touch my lower back without me screaming, was so painful and inflamed. I thought would be a quick fix, couldn’t be more wrong.

After a month, I was still going every week, costing my wallet. When I asked how long the treatment would last, she wouldn’t give me a straight answer, I had a funny feeling then – she wanted to see me for as long as possible, for her own profit, of course.

Funny enough on the top floor of the Chiropractor, was a Yoga studio, and I was like “hmmm, really?”


I did my research into yoga, its many benefits, to my surprise, yoga helps improve posture, healing back and shoulder ailments.


I’ve also learned is a good way to go within, to prepare for meditation.

As I start my adventure into yoga,


my body relaxes, feels lighter, flexible, I become more mindful of how it moves, how it feels, how it reacts,

become aware of the tension in my shoulders, so tense they are up to my ears,


my mind more still, peaceful, quiet.

Here some of many benefits of yoga:

  • increase in flexibility, balance and strength
  • reduces stress, anxiety and depression
  • improves sleep
  • reduces inflammation
  • reduces chronic pain
  • weight loss
  • improves posture
  • strengths bone
  • increases blood flow
  • boost immunity
  • drains your lymph nodes
  • reduces blood pressure
  • regulates adrenal glands
  • lowers blood sugar
  • encourages healthy eating
  • helps you focus, find stillness and connection
  • releases tension
  • improves the way you breathe
  • protects you from injury
  • peace of mind
  • overall well-being

No wonder Yoga has become so popular.

We live in a chaotic world rushing, doing and thinking constantly none stop, stressing our minds and bodies daily.

Find sometime to unwind, to nourish, to reconnect, to breathe.

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Solitary Souls

Souls that live for themselves, to themselves, free from other’s – other’s thoughts, other’s perspectives, other’s expectations.

They see the world from a different perspective than most. They focus on their growth, they believe in themselves to, create a life they dreamed of without attachments.

They are free to experience the world in its fullest, without restrictions.

They are strong, committed, and willing to adventure, adventure to conquer their goals, their dreams.

They have a clear understanding of themselves, they dedicate much of their lives pursuing their purpose in life, finding life’s meaning.

They can be fearless, adventuring through life with open eyes, and open heart, open soul, ready for the challenges that life brings them.

Some dedicate their life to others; after dedicating so much time on their own, rediscovering themselves, experiencing the world and growing; they find meaning, purpose, by assisting others to discover themselves.

In the end, we all the same, is just some of us have more zest for self discovery.

It doesn’t mean that they don’t feel lonely sometimes, or that they isolate themselves from social encounters, they can be very social, but they understand the importance of oneself and their limitations.

They can come across selfish or egocentric, but I find that to be much further from the truth, they just value themselves, and use life experiences to grow, that growth doesn’t just help them, but others around them.

If you dedicate much of your time seeking your dreams, conquering your goals, dedicating time to yourself to experience life on your own, to experience the world as it is, to observe your thoughts and feelings, you not only have a better understanding of yourself, but also others.

Some of us are entangled with life commitments and other people’s expectations, thoughts, feelings, and end up not knowing if we leaving for yourselves or others, we end up forgetting our own identity.

If you can’t be your authentic self, you voiding the world from your true potential.

I know isn’t easy to find time for ourselves in this chaotic world sometimes, but, time is only relative, it will be what you want it to be.

If you want to have more time for yourself find it!

Be more mindful of your presence through the world, be aware of your thoughts, feelings, your body, your steps, the way you do things, the way you speak, feel your presence at this exact moment!

Mindfulness is a great way to dedicate ‘time’ to ourselves, we forget to breathe sometimes, so breathe, consciously feel your chest rise and fall, feel your feet on the ground… you can be mindful anytime and anywhere, with a little practice it becomes a habit, and what a better way to remind ourselves that we are alive, here and now!

What a better way to honor ourselves and others but, to just be present.

By present, I mean truly present, where you feel the world through your being, free from conceptions and attachments.

Much Love And Pece From My Heart To Yours – Namasté

“Life gives you plenty of time to do whatever you want to do if you stay in the present moment.” — Deepak Chopra

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Successful People Rise Early

Early to bed and early to rise, makes a man healthy, wealthy and wise.”
~Benjamin Franklin

Dedicating a good couple of hours, to myself, in the morning, prove to be a bliss, some would say, “I would rather dedicate those hours to myself sleeping”. But then you miss an opportunity to see the sunrise, to just breathe, to feel the fresh energy of mind and body that arrises every morning, you would miss the opportunity to feel the moment, to be present.

As I rise earlier, I feel calmer, more peaceful, taking my time to feel the day, to feel the cold air of the morning, to enjoy my coffee, to listen to the birds, to plan my day peacefully, to write my journal, to let my thoughts came and go at they own course, no rush.

Meditations on the morning are much more fruitful too, pure bliss, I feel my essence in its purest. If left for the end of the day, the mind is tired of all things that went through the day, thoughts are more intrusive, peace, stillness, quietness aren’t easily achieved (having a toddler around makes it harder too).

In the morning the mind is fresh to take in new challenges.

In the morning you have the strength to face the challenges of the day, your mind is ready and fresh to come up with the wisest answers.

Do you wanna give it a try?
What you have to gain?
A lot!

What have you got to lose?
Sleep, unless you go to bed earlier, and stop yourself from just staring at the TV all night, watching meaningless programs, that aren’t productive or fruitful to your mind.

Try increments of half-hour, half-hour earlier to sleep, a half-hour earlier to get up, and then stay with what feels more comfortable to you.

Wake up slowly, take your time to feel the day, open your eyes and just stay there for minute, look out the window, observe the sky, when you ready get yourself up, put a nice piece of music, something you really enjoy, make your coffee, savor it, just be present, let your thoughts come and go. Make a plan for the day, and then let it be, trust that will be done.

Feel the fresh air in the morning, perhaps go for a little jog, do some yoga, or some kind of exercise you enjoy…

That will set up your energy for the day…

I’m not saying this a miracle cure for crappy days, you’ll still have them, but they will not be as bad, you will have time to process your mood, to accept it, and to be kinder to yourself.

Whatever you do, always remember to be kind and loving towards yourself. Dedicate this time to you, you are worth it!

May your day be joyful and enriching…

From my heart to yours – Namaste 🙏🏻

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My deepest self

I struggle to express my deepest feelings and thoughts, so I’ve though of a way to express myself here.

I love writing, what a better way, but to put in writing, what goes in my heart.

I struggle with questions, when people ask of me what I can’t give, not because I don’t want to, but because I’m just unable too.

Thoughts aren’t mine, I’ve detached myself from them, I see them come and see them go, I do not engage or trust them, because they aren’t permanent (Buddha’s teachings), and it’s true!

Since then I feel freer and more peaceful.

When someone forces answers I don’t know what to say.

I’ll express myself when I’m ready, when I feel like it, not when I’m pushed to give answers.

It makes me nervous. I’m as much an introvert as an extrovert, I like to be quiet, in my own world, I think, but do not overthink, I let my thoughts come and go as they please.

I simply don’t think is wise to follow my thoughts, they are just thoughts, I rarther follow my intuition, whatever feels right at the moment, whatever resonates with my essence.

When someone keeps asking about what I think, it’s hard, because,

I don’t really like to think much, I do like to feel, and go with the feeling, and again, isn’t really a feeling, but more like a force that propels me, something higher then myself that “tells” me what to do and when to do it.

I do plan the future, I have expectations, I have thoughts, but I make my plans, when I’m ready, and then I just trust my intuition, that “voice” to follow through.

At the moment I’m experiencing something, I don’t think have experienced before – Heartbreak – would I thought would be this painful? No, I just feel my heart has been stolen, like it was when I lost my child.

I just feel lost, but not desperate, I let the feeling be, embrace it, its part of the process, I don’t overthink, I just let it be.

It’s pointless to keep thinking, to go over and over things.

Let it just be.

Once you surrender to the pain, to the overwhelming feeling, its energy is released.

Little by little, you become free, peaceful, that for me is enough, feelings are just feelings, they come and go, just like thoughts.

Don’t make much of it, because they are not yours to begin with (Zen teachings).

I’m grateful for meditation, and all the Buddhist teachings I’ve learned, as they allow me to experience thing in a different way, see things differently and process whatever its happening in a useful way, for personal growth.

I like to listen, allow someone talk what goes in their heart, or even just simple conversation, I enjoy that.

But ask me questions with no end, I don’t know what to do.

Ask me for advice, I’ll gadly give you.

But go over and over the same subject, makes my mind spin, its like I’m in their mind, and all I experience is a world of thoughts spinning around like mad, its chaos!

The world would be so much simpler and peaceful if, people would realise that their thoughts, aren’t actually theirs, and the more you give in to thinking, the more unsettle, confused and untanngled you become, is no freedom.

Meditation is my refuge, my yoga is my home, where I can just feel my presence, be more connected to what is, to the world as it is, root down, ground myself, and just be.

I feel is nothing for me to do, and still nothing is left undone. Be free to experience the world as it is.

Such a beautiful feeling – peace.

When your feet touch the earth, your hands the water, your skin the air, and your heart the warmth of the sun – its pure joy, its magical, you are one with it all.

I hope one day I find someone that understands me, that accepts me as I am, that true connection does not need words, in a sense, a connection that goes beyond words.

But if I don’t, I don’t, again I’m not overthinking, I just take life as it comes, be what it will be, I’m One with it, I trust my InnerSelf to guide me, to speak my truth, to be my TrueSelf, to honour my essence.

May there be peace and love in my heart as in yous 🙏🏻

“At the center of your being you have the answer; you know who you are and you know what you want.” Lao Tzu

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